Trust in God has been lost to me in previous embodiments; I distrust the father or God; the powerlessness and loss of the father; or the dictatorial father; hidden power struggles with other authorities; the power struggle between the good and the evil in me and subsequent transformation of my shadow sides; profound, yet closed and not letting anyone really get to him; the psychologist, therapist and magician; strong spiritual will; the manipulator who controls everyone; likes to polarize because he clearly distinguishes between good and evil;